Fear’s Demise
Losing again and again
Telling one after another the news they do not wish to hear.
Painful needles of unfolding truths coming
Making one question, when I lose once again will I be lost this time?
Walking gently
Barging forward boldly
Will this choice make all the difference?
To bring a dream into this world piece by piece fully uncertain of what will be.
The priority shining it’s face today is utility of my choice
But tomorrow what will it be?
Questioning each moment, intuitively knowing I predicted this.
I called this in to me.
While pencil sketches of other easier roads were lightly drawn over the permanent black marks of the path before me.
An honesty I must embrace
A death of one in favor of the rebirth of another.
One massive shake up after another to unfold over and over.
It’s unsettling and invigorating all at once.
My wild heart throttles forward rocking me to my unsteady core.
Fear with all her unsightly tendrils curls around me in familiar but deceitful comfort.
“Go where you know my child of shadow and dark, there is nothing to harm you there,” she states in her seemingly innocent voice.
But I see the erosion of complacency behind her eyes urging me to draw close.
I spring back to this moment right here
Right now
And know this is what is real for me.
These sacred pages hold a door to the escape for the lost feeling of change washing me back out to sea over and over.
Fear can’t traverse this land of simile and metaphor
Or pound her ugly first of the opening to creativity in incessant demand of returning to a home which burned long ago.
I could go on and on in ceaseless breath but I shall conclude
Finding a line to end and therefore begin all over again.
Intuitive Writing Exercise
If the topic of fear resonates with you, I invite you to take a few minutes to write about a time in your life you experience fear and how it guided or did not guide your decision making. I would love to read your words on this topic, if it feels in alignment for you, share your words on fear in the form below.